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| | so i dont think ill ever do another lj entry, sry. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
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| this weather, huh?
pretty gross.
not hot.
just uncomfortabely warm and wet.
i miss school
a lot
which is typical of me for the summer time
but this is waaaaay to early
theres a whole nother month
before school.
i wonder if there will be any cool and or attractive new students.
probably not.
i was sure there would be this year.
I WAS WRONG.
i decideddddddddd to volunteer this week!
i dont remember what i was watching that made me want to
help unfortunate people
but it was something.
maybe ill read to sick old people!
they ccan be cute.
im scared to work with children or anything
i might cry.
old people alwats depress me
even if theyre happy.
i dont know why, theyre all sad to me.
im just scared of getting old.
i used to want to be old.
i thought it would solve all my problems
isnt that weird?
now im terrified of the idea.
im so excited for my future.
i think its going to be EXCITITNG
i saw the new charlie and the chocolate factory movie.
i went even though i discovered that the creep who plays the WHEELY MAN
in the x files
plays all the oompa loompas
but by the end of the movie id decided hes not scary
but extremely cool.
i love that little man
but his name is
DEEP ROY
how weird is thaat, creep.
im going to canada in 6 days.
wow.
we r going to be sitting in front of a lake for days and days.
im excited.
ok, okay
it will be fun, but what is there to do in wilderness country?
shoot a raccoon?
buy a hatchet?
our options are limited.
canada is known for having maple leaves.
and its my vacation destination.
i was at American Eagle yesterday.
I like American Eagle for the most part, they have cute clothes.
Anyway, I saw a very nice long sleeved blue and white striped shirt with a cute orange eagle, button up,
and I though to myself
"i want, no need, this shirt. I'm going to do it. I'm going to spend the 16.99 or whatever other ridiculous high price they have marked!"
but the shirt wasnt 16.99
which is a lot for a shirt, I think.
The shirt was
34 DOLLARS
THIRTY FOUR
I can get pants and a shirt for that.
I can get a lot of DDR for that.
I can get my lawn mowed twice for that if I find someone dumb.
I almost bought it anyway, but decided against it.
It was such a nice shirt.
i feel bad for my video games
i really owe them an apology.
i buy them and play them for an hour
and then give them their space
for a few years
before i sell them back for 2.40
just kidding, i usually dont sell video games unless im feeling dumb.
but im officially sorry video games.
ill do better
i promise.
i'll leave homework
in a month ill tell HW its over between us.
my room needs cleaning
its vile
so all you friends who dont and werent going to come over anyway
dont start now, because its gross in here
alright, pals
my brother used to call me
no one
as a child.
because it sounds like
noah
and because no one wants to be no one,
so I would cry
I AM SOMEONE
SOMEONE!
<3
no one | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Neutral Milk Hotel - Two Headed Boy | | Security: | | | Subject: | I DONT LIKE WEEZER MUCH | | Time: | 02:42 am | | Current Mood: | blah |
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| so.
today was sofias moms birthday, ok yesterday was.
we went to my old job to eat.
i quit that job over the phone with no notice on a day i was supposed to work.
i had just cause though, for serious.
anyway,
i pretended not to know the waitress, which was so funny because we obviously recognized eachother.
"uhm miss, do you have lemon here?"
haha
duh they have lemon.
then we saw mad hot ballroom
it was fun
i thought it was long, but it wasnt even 2 hours
i guess im dumb.
im watching some ghost show on the travel channel
its not scary
its a group of people in a basement with night vision camera
haha
one just started barking and threw a lamp!
i guess that means hes posessed.
i dont buy any of this.
but i have seen REAL GHOST PROOF
it was in an ad on myspace.
im going to boston to see gabe and stuff with thomas and sofia on wednesday
i hope i am anyway
it all depends on thomas
i made a new drawing
which was fun
im getting my permit soon!
im four months late
i could be getting my license in two months
if i wasnt retarted
but guess what
i am retarted
so im not.
i may dedicate my summer to final fantasy 7
is that a bad idea?
honestly, i dont know.
omg
someone
on radio free rosco
just said
"cool beeeeeans"
thats really gross
a few things can make me lose my apetite
1.emotional distress
2.cool beans
ok, a couple things.
i was considering buying some baggy pants
not rlly baggy
but id like to see myself in them
its been a long time.
i wonder how my legs and genitalia will react
to so much freedom.
if they react at all like i did when i was released from my
boring room
out into the spacious and breezy world
then things will be far too exciting.
maybe ill free mcdonalds into her natural habitat, my woods.
she could survive, or fly south.
shes tough.
too tough, thats why she needs to be set free.
i got a rlly hot tan mowing the lawn yesterday
somewhat like a golden god.
god, im depressed.
dylan cheats on marco
i dont like dylan
but poor marco
poooooor marco
what do i do?!
degrassi dictates my life
what happens to characters i relate to
might as well happen to me.
these are dark days ahead of me
dark
dark
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| | Current Music: | David Bowie - Ground Control to Major TOM | | Security: | | | Subject: | the cycle of hell | | Time: | 06:33 pm | | Current Mood: |  nerdy |
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| i am stuck on a spiraling cycle of hell.
and im jsut getting more twisted and sucked
deep within the
relentless black pit of hell.
by that i mean i keep staying up til 6 to see the x files.
it is not
my
fault.
its just not.
i lub da x files.
so anyway, i cant go to bed before 630 now, usually 7. its terrible.
i wake up between 230 and 4
enough time to forget about any plans i might have made,
and plop down on my bed to wait for 1 am to roll around
and the five hours of x files to begin.
you may have noticed in your creepy obsession with me that my myspace is
looking
exceptionally nice.
yes. it is.
because i have lots of time on my hands.
lots of time.
to make my internet perception of me look
extremely chic.
and i do,
and it does.
so.
last night.
sofia and i stay awake (this is our first human to human non-family interaction in a week)
all night.
at 6 when we would go to bed,
I get the fabulous idea to stay awake all day and
go to bed at like 9 or 10,
thereby reversing our cycle and becoming human beings once and for all.
good plan,
right?
but 10 am comes around, we r still in her little cave room
(she has put four heavy steel wool blanekts over her windows to avoid seeing natural light)
and the glow of her tv and computer screens finally bore us.
and stupid dumb retarted forever plus a day sofia
(who is actually a transgendered gay homosexual man at heart)
decides we should "nap"
so we "nap"
at 10 am.
we wake up from our "nap"
at 4 pm.
we had a long nap.
SIX HOUR NAP IS NOT A NAP ITS SLEEPING FOR A LONG TIME!
so my plan is ruined i got sleep and now will be up late again.
the spiral of hell is never ending.
i will continue at a constant rate until
school starts.
at which point i will have no option but to stay awake during the day as well.
which will cause me to die.
my body will stop working
stop producing life chemicals
and i
will
die.
this is my fate.
(i accidently wrote this is my fat, and then went back and fixed it)
so, this is my fat.
in my death, i hope i shall be remembered for the noble work i did on my myspace account,
without which i would not be recognizable or commendable.
id like to bring things down a bit and talk about something serious.
like.
i need the following.
a) three connected full length mirrors that unfold.
b) a ceramic hair straightener, because its better for your hair.
c) new pants
d) new sweaters
e) a job
f) a social life that will work with my new sleeping patterns
i know i have taken advantage of summer
and now im paying the price.
but people
trust me.
i do not deserve
this.
someone call me.
please.
anyone.
i dont care who
someone.
oh, also in my time alone i have worked on muh art
so you can go see it here
www.omgboy.deviantart.com
im glad im doing that, its something productive.
soon i will be a slave to the mask man
and he will chain me up to a big red haired witch
and make me lug around heavy tribal men.
save me | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | tv | | Security: | | | Subject: | i need | | Time: | 03:52 pm | | Current Mood: |  amused |
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| i need to sleep before 6 am
before 5 am
preferrably before 4 am
three am is good
but i have so much to do from 3 to 6
i shot beer cans with a gun!
im an excellent shot.
boo wants me to make him pancakes
hes so dumb.
im wearing a cute outfit today.
royal scratched thomas
my mom wants me to wake up earlier
i do too
noah | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | talib kweli - for women | | Security: | | | Subject: | day today | | Time: | 04:31 pm | | Current Mood: |  calm |
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| today i am doing nothing
im still in my pajamas
wrapped up in a blanket
and watching
"how thin is too thin?"
next to me, mcdonalds my parakeet,
is puffed up like a cloud
i think she is beginning to like me.
its the fourth of july!
im not doing anything i dont think
today is a day
for celebration
like
julius' birthday!
happy birthday
i cant wait to get dressed
all of a sudden.
i want to go see a film tonight.
most of my friends are tanning
but i dont want to tan,
i want to be dressed.
I ordered Switch Killer
after seeing it on demand yesterday.
It was
so
good.
Its about a man and a woman
and the woman
cheats on the man with a lesbian.
then the man, gets
a
sex change!
and he kills all her lesbian lovers.
he has a fiiine body..
i want the poster.
chyna doll is ridiculous
shes so miserably entertaining
im sick of the surreallife
why
am i rewatching it?
i guess i dont have much to talk about
im far too calm
and neutral
and since nothing is happening today
i dont know...
maybe i will do something
i dont like doing NOTHING
im going to wash all of my clothes
and
hang the rest up
and
clean my whole room
and reorganize my movie collection
or straighten things uo
anyway.
i miss winter
so much
i miss the clean air and smell
i just miss it
and wearing scarves
im sorry summer
i love you too <3
why cant i ever be happy with the season i have?
besides fall.
I LOVE YOU FALL <3333<3333<3333
dont dont
dont hurt me again
noah | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | diana ross and the supremes - RESPECT | | Security: | | | Subject: | my so called, life? | | Time: | 03:32 am | | Current Mood: |  thoughtful |
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| dear diary,
lieing here, naked under a fox fur coat, i begin to realize that..
the world is one big rolling stone.
like the band?
i dont know.
maybe.
maybe not?
so many people, around, here, on the earth
hungry
or
not?
oh diary!
im so confused
i need guidance?
i guess so.
but can anyone really pin point where I am?
here, naked under several skinned fox?
foxes?
foxi?
like cacti?
or octopi?
which are the plural words for cactus and octopus.
cactus being a plant in the desert, and octopus being a large weird animal in the sea.
maybe its just fox.
sitting still, while the world rapidly rotates.
is a fox a cat or a dog?, they'll ask.
as they search for me. i would imagine, that, diary, i will be famous later, in life that is.
and now, that i have come to, fully appreciate commas, i'd like to say thank you.
thank you.
love diarynoah
today i have decided that i will buy more clothes.
i got a new hoodie and a new t shirt
and a new white plain polo shirt.
i envy cher.
not the gross creep singer
the clueless cher
she is so well put together.
she has so many goals, and she gets them mostly done.
she is on top of things,
and im not.
soon, im going to make a big change
and prove to cher
and the rest of the world.
that i.
am.
smart and stuff.
i wanna help ppl
<3 noah
BEAT ON THE BRAT!!! | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | bikini kill - R.I.P. | | Security: | | | Subject: | you'll be given love | | Time: | 03:48 pm | | Current Mood: | contemplative |
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| i want to spread love
but i also
want to buy new clothes.
i can do both, if im dedicated.
how can something so perfect
so beautiful
be
so dissapointing
my mom bought me a dozen delicious humungous cookies.
i ate three
or two
i think three.
i havent fallen into a cuddle puddle in too long.
i want to be close with someone
not anyone
sofia got a lj
if i was very popular on here
then this would be a great publicity stunt
(me mentioning her)
www.livejournal.com/users/cutiespy
my friend jullllius
is going to iiiindia
for a mmmmonth
ill miss you julius!!
im growing less fond of mcdonalds
(the parakeet not the fast food chain)
all she does is warble and squack
the warbling is kind of cute
but she doesnt love me
i have been taking too many showers
i love showers
i want a big room all one shower
everything is beautiful under the moon
blue and gray and black
and pleasantly cold
especially at two am
my favorite hour
my x-files hour
my alone hour
unless
im
not
summer fun check list
1. Swim in a stranger's pool at night [x]
2. Road trip out of state [ ]
theres another boy genious
whos fucking gone
and i wouldnt be so fucking mad
so fucking
pissed off
if it wasnt so fucking wrong
its so fucking wrong
its not fair its not fair its not fair
its not
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| like when everything comes together
even if it doesnt fit
it has to.
like this rain
and my lawn mower
they dont fit
but i mow because it rains
avon sales are plummiting.
i need a stronger will to sell
i approached a big purple jingley house and between the
statues of buddah
and a hindu god
were two doorbells, one horizontally on top of the other
and they said
"heaven"
and
"earth"
no one came out of heaven
but a big fat middle aged dyke with a crew cut and work boots came out of earth.
she didn't want my lipstick samples, or exotic perfumes.
bunny slept with me last night.
i dont know where royal was
i dont know what that means
thank god today is gray
we fit perfectly,
like two spoons
like the old people in titanic
fuck you titanic
like those people didnt fit in the water
but they managed to combine.
and today i am revived and calm
ready to make cake for someone nice
and kiss royal goodbye
<3 <3 <3
p.s.
i need my permit
and a big roller coaster | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| so.
as you all know I and you know who have been fighting hard core with you know who else.
Lots of nasty shit being said, dirty tricks, etc.
but in the climax of the event, something very unexpected happened.
we all made up, appologized, and mutually accepted a truce.
i know.
weird.
but relieving, feuding is stressful.
and now i know i have a decent heart
and not some cruel spiteful dark cold hole.
the big forgive. ^
lots of moving this weekend.
lots of fun.
lots of lots of people and talking and activity.
now all i want is tv
and computer
and royal
and quiet people doing quiet things for one day, at least.
i need to shower
all this summer fun is making me damp
and tired tired
tired.
robin and sylvie are wonderful people.
but they have big problems.
they are sooo needy,
if you are planning on hanging out with them, make very strict meeting and seperating times, write them down
and swear in blood you will abide by those times, and whatever activities you have agreed to.
because you will be in a world of trouble if you try to improvise.
i went skinny dipping with s and j
we were naked
and swimming
and s was screaming because
shes a girl.
and girls scream.
we had so much fun.
one big fat night of fun.
i am recooperating from the fun with thomas and degrassi and queer as folk.
hopefully more fun will come this week.
no school.
lawn mowing.
blah.
i feel weird
and sad
i think titanic left an impression on me this morning,
a dent of sadness,
which is rude of titanic.
j and i both love the scene where the old couple is lieing in bed crying and cuddling and getting
engulfed by the water.
its beautiful.
i love titanic.
im lonely
i feel lonely
and im not lonely for royal
like i usually am.
this summer i want to eat a lot of ice cream and
go swimming a lot and
tell secrets that will really be secrets and
find totoro.
the world is a big cracked egg
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